Change is a good thing right?
What I’ve noticed is that when a big change is around the corner for me, the little changes that precede it often turn from molehills into mountains right before my eyes.
This is what happened last weekend when, with the help of a very handy techie-woman from Fiverr.com I transferred my website from the WordPress.com platform to WordPress.org.
The reason for doing this is so I can do more businessy type stuff on my site and have more control over how I use it.
Well I won’t go into the details, but it would seem the universe conspired to add some twists and turns to this seemingly straightforward process just to test my mettle, or was it to help me to fully embody my commitment to this business of mine? I don’t know.
All I know is that as a result of me zigging, and undoing what my techie-woman had zagged for me, I completely erased my website – containing four years of blog posts – from visible existence. And so it stayed for three long days while I waited for her to come back to me over the weekend.
My natural urge to keep working away at it (in complete ignorance) came rushing forward and it took all my deeper awareness and intuitive insights to prevent me from making the problem even worse by trying to fix it myself.
I have to say, this is where my morning meditation practice saved the day. Getting up each morning to meditate on those difficult three days allowed me to:
- Be present with how I was feeling
- Be in a reasonable level of acceptance around what had happened
- Be open to however it was going to work out in the end
My intuition kept telling me all was well and that the website would be restored but gosh it was hard to let go and trust this would really happen.
So I’m on the air again with all my posts and most of the images intact and I’ve learnt a lot about trusting universe, feeling helpless and letting go of the past. Ahh, the benefits of a tricky experience, they’re so much richer than the easy ones.
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