What I have been learning about this week is settling back into myself and feeling more firmly grounded in the present. For a couple of weeks I have been making plans for running some courses in Australian Bush Flower Essences for the general public in the second half of this year. And oh boy have I taken myself on a magical ride of what-ifs, maybes and if onlys. Being a perfectionist from way back and an over-analyser to boot, I have gotten myself all tied up in knots over venue choices, course format, times and dates. I have also gone from organising one community-based Bush Essence Course in Fremantle, to running three in different parts of the state complete with introductory talks in each location six weeks before the courses commence. Now, I still believe that all this is possible, but I feel I may have put the cart before the horse since I haven’t even fully learned the course material yet (there’s that perfectionist).
I suppose what is at the root of all this indecision, procrastination, or if you like, paralysis by analysis, is a degree of anxiety about stepping into this new role. I have absolute confidence in my ability to talk knowledgeably about the Bush Essences, it’s all the unknown variables that trip me up. How many people will book in? What sort of people will they be? How will they like the course? Will they like me? Now I realise this is all just part of the new adventure I am embarking upon and perhaps I just need to remember to trust that all will be well. But even when making what should be a straightforward choice between a venue with a great natural outlook or built in audio-visual equipment I am stumped.
It is said these days that a great source of anxiety in modern life is too much choice. For example, if I lived in a small town where the only course venue available was the local town hall, then that would be simple, I would just go ahead and book it. We find ourselves in many situations these days where we are offered a staggering array of choice from selecting a packet of biscuits or breakfast cereal in the supermarket, to choosing a phone plan or internet service provider. It’s exhausting!
The tiny white flower featured in the photo above is the Sundew. The Sundew Essence helps us to feel more grounded and able to focus on the present moment. It is perfect for times when we are feeling overwhelmed by choice and prone to procrastination and daydreaming rather than taking action ( I just went and took some).
Since I now make all my choices using intuitive guidance, this really shouldn’t be such a big deal. I think I just need to slow down a little and take one step at a time, knowing I have people and spiritual support around me to pull it all together. Getting carried away with the endless possibilities doesn’t always serve us in creating something that reflects our own true essence. It all comes back to knowing that I am enough. You are enough too.