I’ve been playing with a couple of themes this past week. One is the concept of ‘enough’ or perhaps more accurately, ‘good enough’. Anyone else out there have perfectionist tendencies?
The other one is the idea that we have supporters (seen and unseen) in our lives and that how we handle the flow of giving and receiving determines whether or not we make good use of that support. Give too much and receive too little and it’s out of balance for us all. We mothers are especially good at this, giving till we’re ready to expire (or explode) and not feeling able to ask for help.
Before I go any further, I’d like to credit MaryCay Durant from Your Success Signature Business with alerting me to these concepts on a coaching call three weeks ago. The slow filtration process began then and is now emerging as real change in my life only now. Actually, this isn’t too bad if you ask me, I’ve frequently had transforming information resonate with me on the first hearing and then it’s taken me, oh, around ten years to finally implement it in my life.
So what’s this all about?
It’s about wanting to play a bigger game in my life and finding myself bumping up against demands that didn’t even feel like demands a mere four weeks ago. They were just stuff I did and I had plenty of time for.
You see I’ve gotten clearer about what my work is, who I’m serving and how I promote who I am and what I do. I’ve become busier with client appointments, I’ve written a business plan (thank you dear hubby for the firm nudge to do this), and for the umpteenth time, began a new edit on my book manuscript. Not to mention big tweaks to this website and the creation of my first printed promotional materials in eighteen months!
So, all that’s happened is life’s gotten a little busier and I’ve needed to reset priorities, plan my time a little more carefully and embrace these two concepts;
- Decide anew what’s ‘good enough’ in terms of making time for housework, family, creativity, meditation, friends, exercise and work so I end up feeling in balance at the end of the day.
- Realise I have support among my family, friends and my spirit guides and angels that I only need call upon to ease my workload and assist me with allowing it to feel easy and light again.
These periods of tension amid change can provoke feelings of fear, panic, blockage, retreat, overwhelm and an urge to throw in the towel. I’ve felt all this and spent a couple of weeks wrestling with the attendant resentment that I projected onto the dearest people in my life, my precious husband and children whose very existence buoys me, urges me to be my highest expression and without whom I wouldn’t even be on my current path (sigh and chastened smile).
Haaah. It’s quite difficult sometimes isn’t it, this ‘life’ thing?
So, I’m writing this post at 8.45 in the evening (I used to do it in the day), while my children settle off to sleep and hubby switches the television off to go and read his book. No big deal, I enjoy this creative outlet and pretty soon I’ll be off to bed too.
I’ve found a new energy for doing all that I do by asking for some help from my family, acknowledging how I can drop some time wasting activities or at least reduce them (think email and facebook), and I’m giving myself a huuuge break around what is possible and ENOUGH.
I’m letting it flow, allowing my inner guidance to take the driver’s seat, knowing it’s time to let go of some rigid ideals around who I am as a wife, mother, woman and person in favour of being the humble, quiet, holy me who knows how awesomely powerful she really is and is ready to shine a little bit shinier.
Onwards men and women, to the peak!