We all just want peace and happiness don’t we? I certainly do and I’ve been working at it, really, I have.
But amid all the shifts, changes and growth, it often ends up all feel harder, when what we were aiming for was easier.
I’m big on analysing, questioning , refining and improving everything in my life pretty much all the time. Earlier on this week I felt like screaming ENOUGH! When will I feel like I know enough, have become enough and can give enough?
At what point does the ceaseless striving end and the simple and authentic BEING begin?
This week in preparing for my women’s meditation circle, I found myself feeling drawn to less rather than more. It’s become my habit to feel I have to cram a lot of value into our hour spent together: Deliver a guided meditation that raises self-awareness or heals an issue, read a quote, play some uplifting or healing music, speak wisely on our topic and do some oracle card readings. Then I breathe a silent sigh of relief as we drink herbal tea together and everyone chats.
So this week I allowed the session to be simpler. I lead the women into their hearts and then played a sound healing track. It felt easier and more natural. It felt fun and more relaxing for us all.
My journey of consciously developing my spiritual awareness and intuitive abilities began more than a decade ago, actually it’s closer to two decades. Since then I’ve read Louise Hay, Neale Donald Walsch, Eckhart Tolle, Miranda Holden, Wayne Dyer and countless others. I’ve learned about energy healing via Kinesiology, Reiki, Aurasoma, crystals, flower essences, chakra balancing, toning and many other modalities created by wonderful and gifted healers. Not to mention all the other complimentary therapies like essential oils and homeopathy I’ve accessed for me and my family to assist us with our overall well-being. Oh and don’t let me leave out numerology and astrology for endless and entertaining insights on who we really are.
Now don’t get me wrong, this has all been great. I’ve managed to resolve plenty of niggly health issues, emotional stuck-points and mental hang-ups by travelling this endlessly fascinating path. Plus, the self-knowledge I’ve gained has helped to me help others with clarity, humour and humility.
It’s just that, well, it seems that the more we delve, analyse, seek answers from others and ponder our existential crises from every possible angle, the more we also become attached to the idea that all this focus on our ‘story’ and personal ISSUES, is essential for our future happiness and in reality….
What if it were also true that the more committed we are to figuring it all out, the further away we get from our true essence?
What if all the therapies, philosophies, treatments, processes and potions we’ve made use of are merely distractions, window dressing or even overlays that cover up our inner truth and divinity?
Just a thought.
The only way you can answer these questions for yourself is to allow yourself some time in silence, just a few moments here and there are enough to begin with.
Listen with love and reverence for the life you already are <3