Abundance isn’t about what we have, it’s about how we feel about what we have.
There was this lonely lemon sitting in the centre of the fruit bowl. It had been there for weeks and was probably past its prime, maybe no good at all, but I was saving it for when I really needed a lemon.
The day finally came when I thought, “yes, I’m going to use that precious lemon, I’m ready.”
The lemon was over-ripe and squishy. I threw it in the bin.
Believing that all of life is a metaphor for our inner world, I thought:
“Well now, what does this little moment of domestic banality say about me?”
Perhaps nothing, if it was an isolated incident, but it wasn’t.
I’ve always been a saver. I worry that if I use it now, when I genuinely need it, I’ll regret the premature use and have to go without.
I save clothes that seem too good to wear on just an ordinary day, I save food just so I know it’s sitting there, available for us to consume another time, I hold back from sharing affection, compliments, kind thoughts, just in case, you know, there’s a more appropriate moment to offer them just around the corner.
I resist spending money on frivolities because my eye is on the bigger picture. What if that money is required for something we really NEED some other time and I just spent it on a magazine, T.shirt or pretty candle holder?
But lemons bring out something in me that’s unique.
You see, I know something… I know there are many trees in our town right now with lemons hanging from them, ripe for the picking. They’re tucked away in the front and backyards of rarely occupied holiday homes. I have my favourite lemon harvesting targets (I only sneak one or two at a time), and I simply will not buy a lemon from Coles. Supermarket lemons are nothing like freshly picked, real lemons. You know what I mean.
So this issue isn’t about an actual lack of lemon availability, no no, this secret little obsession of mine comes from the awareness that I should have plentiful lemons at my finger tips because in my mind, there is an endless lemon supply all around our neighbourhood.
The clincher is, I just never seem to have enough. It can be tricky swiping lemons from private property even when nobody is there and even if the lemons will only rot on the ground if no-one takes them.
Despite this rationale it does feel a little bit criminal to take them, so I only take one or two every week or so and then I don’t want to use them because they seem so precious and hard-won. Or, perhaps I don’t feel I deserve them at all?
Do you see what I’m getting at and what this little tale might be revealing about my abundance status?
It gets even weirder, my parents have lemon trees in their yard and every so often Mum arrives at our place proffering a big bag of lemons, my heart jumps, I feel blessed and abundant. But do you know what I do? I place them lovingly in a bowl and I admire them.
I still don’t use them will nilly, I save them because you never know when I might need six or seven lemons in one day. Right?
The funny thing about this abundance gig is that, you use it, you get more, you save it and universe responds with a similar energy, something we like to call lack.
Way back in the 1920’s Florence Scovel Shinn wrote about this very topic in her book, The Game of Life and How to Play It.
She described that there is a universal “Law of Use” where what we have should be used or given to another and that when we hoard or save items, we eventually experience loss and lack.
This is very similar to our modern day “Law of Attraction” is it not? Here’s what I think:
If I believe I always have everything I need and go about my day happily using what I have and spending money as I feel I would like to, then I am in flow with universal infinite supply.
How did this statement make you feel? Where did your body contract or tighten?
I feel it in my solar plexus and abdomen.
All we need to do is go to the body area that feel resistance to this truth and love it, reassure it and take it step by step.
Spend a little money when you feel you shouldn’t, pull those ‘special’ ingredients out of the fridge and enjoy them in one meal, buy someone you love a little gift on a whim…get the picture?
I happened across this lovely lemon while walking yesterday and I’m determined to use it right away…anyone for lemon-iced cupcakes?
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Much love, Tricia