When I cast my mind back to when my children were a lot younger and I was a lot more tense and stressed, I remember often feeling that whatever I was doing, it wasn’t what I wanted to be doing.
My internal dialogue went something like this:
“I don’t want to be hanging washing right now. I wish I didn’t have so much washing to do. What’s that noise? Where is that little one? Oh no, she’s gotten into the kitchen cupboard. Why do I always get interrupted? I’d better go inside and stop her from pulling everything out. Oh, look at the time, it’s almost kindy pick-up time and I needed to get to the shops….”
And so on and so on.
I felt that I was always running from one task to another and not achieving very much. A few different stories were running regarding how I was evaluating my own worth as a mother and housekeeper and then there was this whole other perspective to do with thinking things simply should be different than what they were.
I wanted to do things methodically, calmly, within my time frames and with no interruptions. That was how it worked much of the time I was in the paid workforce. Why wasn’t it happening now?
For many of us, motherhood is the time of our lives we’ve dreamed of being in.
It was for me and then, although I completely adored my children and found being with them mostly enjoyable and fulfilling, there was another part of me that found it hard to be fully present with them and embrace the unpredictability and’ busy-work’ they brought to my life.
Also, what I didn’t understand about myself in those early years was that I still needed to make time for myself every day and to learn more about how I could seek out small pockets of time to do the things that made my heart sing.
What ended up saving my sanity was meditation. I made the time to sit and meditate for thirty minutes each day while my children had their afternoon sleep. It wasn’t easy to do at first but the results were so immediate that I knew it was worth sticking with.
I’ve created a little ten minute audio for you this week to guide you into a deeper awareness of what it is to be fully present with yourself and to help you define a passion or natural talent that lifts your spirits and may end up leading you into your next career or hobby.
I absolutely love helping women get to know themselves and their natural talents and passions better. Take a look here to learn more…
Enjoy the recording and enjoy your day, whatever it may bring.